I'm Here

Well I'm alive and I'm still here.

I can't count how many posts I've done with "I'm alive". I'm just so bad at this blogging thing.

However, I have an excuse for all this and I'll do my best to catch you up on it without putting you to sleep on your keyboard.

First off, I haven't been altogether healthy lately. I've been struggling with clinical depression and an anxiety disorder since I was 15. I've been on and off antidepressants for ages, everytime I was off it wasn't by my doctor's choice, but because I didn't want to take it or couldn't afford it. This past bout I've been on since 2012 and consistently been on it. It's managed the depression and anxiety pretty well, but these past few months it hasn't been working quite right. I've been having panic attacks and more depression bouts than I should. 

Part of my recovery has included stepping away from certain obligations I've had, including cutting back at work, so I can focus on my mental health and recovery. Stepping away also meant stepping back from the blog. I've been getting better and am trying to get myself back into the swing of things while being mindful of myself.

Second, like I said, I had to take time away from work. That meant 2 mornings a week I don't step into work and just focus those mornings on my own thing and relaxing. During those times, I wouldn't so much as open my laptop to write a blog post, but now I'm going to try and write at least one post a day.

I'm not as active on here as I am on Instagram, so make sure you follow me @alife_worth_living

With all that said, I hope I can keep up more with the blog, in baby steps. I'm going to shoot for one blog post a week, the more the merrier, but I'm only obligating myself to one post a week!