Baby Steps

Hello hello everyone!

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend!

Michael and I went to the Renaissance Faire on Saturday and had a blast! Michael hasn't been to the local one so we had to make it this year. My mom came with us and we all enjoyed walking around, eating yummy food, looking at cool things, and Michael & I did some archery and Michael did some axe throwing. 

Drinking some meade

 Toad in a hole & frozen chocolate covered cheesecake

 My wonderful man looking so manly!

Sunday morning we woke up bright & early to go apple picking

We know have 3 bags full of apples that we have to figure out what to do with.

And yes, I am, in fact, wearing a Jurassic Park t-shirt.

Now, I know the title of this post makes no step with what I did on my weekend, but I didn't want to just jump into it. 

"Hi, here's what I'm thinking right now. K bye!"

Not how I want my blog to be.

Anywho, let's get into it!

My healthy lifestyle is a joke right now, let's be honest here. It's been incredibly difficult trying to stay on top of eating healthy, exercising, working, keeping the house clean, etc. etc. 

Sounds familiar to everyone right?

However, everyone else that has those problems tackles them by doing small changes.

I, unfortunately, do not. My brain seems to think "well I'm a personal trainer, I can do it all cause that's my job" and I try to jump right into everything and trying to do it all at once.

And where does that get me?

Overwhelmed and exhausted so nothing gets done.

And it is really really frustrating.

I've come to the conclusion (finally) that I can't do it all 100% right out of the gate. So I'm working on taking baby steps to get back into the healthy lifestyle. Right now it's been focusing on exercising and slowly but surely adding in healthy eating.

So we'll see how it all goes!

 

I'm Here

Well I'm alive and I'm still here.

I can't count how many posts I've done with "I'm alive". I'm just so bad at this blogging thing.

However, I have an excuse for all this and I'll do my best to catch you up on it without putting you to sleep on your keyboard.

First off, I haven't been altogether healthy lately. I've been struggling with clinical depression and an anxiety disorder since I was 15. I've been on and off antidepressants for ages, everytime I was off it wasn't by my doctor's choice, but because I didn't want to take it or couldn't afford it. This past bout I've been on since 2012 and consistently been on it. It's managed the depression and anxiety pretty well, but these past few months it hasn't been working quite right. I've been having panic attacks and more depression bouts than I should. 

Part of my recovery has included stepping away from certain obligations I've had, including cutting back at work, so I can focus on my mental health and recovery. Stepping away also meant stepping back from the blog. I've been getting better and am trying to get myself back into the swing of things while being mindful of myself.

Second, like I said, I had to take time away from work. That meant 2 mornings a week I don't step into work and just focus those mornings on my own thing and relaxing. During those times, I wouldn't so much as open my laptop to write a blog post, but now I'm going to try and write at least one post a day.

I'm not as active on here as I am on Instagram, so make sure you follow me @alife_worth_living

With all that said, I hope I can keep up more with the blog, in baby steps. I'm going to shoot for one blog post a week, the more the merrier, but I'm only obligating myself to one post a week!